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21. The death of my ovaries: My revival through premature ovarian failure

"Our body speaks the needs the soul is too shy to ask" - Taylor Mulholland
Early menopause anyone???
In this episode, Taylor shares the full story behind her experience with premature ovarian failure — from the early signs of cycle irregularity, the detrimental side effects of birth control, and the frustration of searching for answers within Western medicine, to the injury that sent her into a profound dark night of the soul (or many nights of the soul...lol).
Taylor talks openly about the experience with hormone replacement therapy, what it provided for her, and where it fell short — and how slowly weaning off that industry's way of "healing" guided her toward a deeper, more holistic path of living. This includes nervous system regulation, trauma work, herbalism, spirit doctoring, and the teachings that reshaped Taylor's entire relationship with her body/mind/spirit, including the work of Joe Dispenza and Kim Anami.
This episode is not medical advice or a prescription. It is one woman’s lived experience — and an invitation to see your cycle and experiences not as something to control or fix, but as a language your body uses to communicate.
If you’ve ever felt redirected by your body, dismissed by systems, or disconnected from your feminine center, this conversation is for you.
"Today, I have a healthy, regular cycle — but more importantly, I have trust, safety, and an intimate relationship with my womb that I never had before." - Taylor
WE ADORE YOU! AND YOUR WOMB!
 
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20. Kambo kambo kambosita!! The kambo experience & my journey with the medicine

MILF of the hour! Man, I Love Frogs…
In this episode, Taylor shares her Kambo experience — how she was first guided to the medicine, what brought it to her psyche, and how her relationship with it evolved over time.
What began as a search for physical healing (specifically around acne) quickly revealed itself to be something much deeper. We talk about how this experience felt divinely guided, what the medicine began to heal beyond the physical, and how it met Taylor in ways she didn’t expect.
We explore who Kambo may be right for — and why it’s not for everyone. Taylor speaks honestly about the intensity of the medicine, the importance of discernment, and why curiosity is potent medicine in itself.
Taylor also gauges what ceremonies can look like, grounded insight on Kambo responsibility/integrity and the responsibility that comes with working with such a powerful medicine. This conversation is rooted in respect, humility, and right relationship — not instruction or persuasion.
This episode is shared as reflection, not recommendation — an honest account of medicine, discernment, and the path from experience into responsibility.
Final note - listening to the body’s wisdom above all else.
WE ADORE YOU! AND FROGS TOO!!
 
Mentioned: Spiritual Guide to Acne: https://sadflowerswritten.com/products/the-spiritual-guide-to-acne-mini-course
 
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17. THE PODCAST I ORIGINALLY DELETED

Originally: The spiritual truths I’m afraid to say out loud…
“This episode was recorded, deleted and eventually revisited — not because the truth changed, but because I did.” - Taylor
In this conversation, Taylor shares why she originally took this episode down, what felt misaligned at the time and full circles to what feels more resonate now. Rather than calling anything out, Taylor’s offering reflection — on her own growth, own blind spots and ways spirituality can both support and complicate your path. ~ so many blurred lines ~
We explore topics that are often spoken about in extremes — religion, twin flames, plant medicine, ego, government narratives and the infamous ‘spiritual performers’ — not as proclamations, but as lived experiences that ask us to slow down, soften and take responsibility for our own discernment.
This isn’t about right or wrong ways to be "spiritual" — It’s about noticing when language outpaces true embodiment, and that soul growth isn’t always linear… nor performative.
Let this epi be a permission slip — to be honest about where you are, to stay curious and to trust that evolving doesn’t require erasing your humanity. Because maybe the spiritual path isn’t about transcending the human experience... But learning how to stay.
And that being a good human matters more than sounding enlightened...
“It’s all an experience… Here is mine.” 
XOXO, Taylor 
ENJOY! 
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19. Life update, final sheds of 2025, what's alive in me

A love note for returning to self... 
This episode is a personal life update and reflection on the final stretch of 2025.
Taylor shares where she's currently at, the lessons 2025 brought forward and the ones that didn’t just land intellectually, but were fully lived and integrated.
She reflects on the themes like alchemy, returning to nature / our life's natural rhythm and calling out the BS in the distractions and noise that we consume ourselves with. No spiritual bypassing in this one!
This epi is both a closing and a clearing — an opportunity to honor what has been, release the stories that no longer needs and make space for what’s next.
What is Taylor consciously embodying in the new year? Take a listen to find out. 
If you’re moving through a season of transition, endings, or quiet reorientation, this conversation is for you.
We’re all here to walk each other home... 
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Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

18. Soul reclamation - My breakthrough session with Shay Rays

In this intimate 1:1 session, Taylor sits down with her dear friend and space holder, Shay Rays. What begins as a heartfelt conversation unfolds into a profound exploration of the subconscious—revealing hidden layers, emotional truths and a powerful breakthrough moment. 
Together, they explore embodiment, awareness and the courage it takes to meet yourself fully.
If you’re on a journey of self-discovery or ready to uncover deeper parts of who you are, this episode invites you into the transformative power of being truly seen, heard, and held.
"I would highly recommend booking a 1:1 session with Shay Rays if you’re ready to uncover deeper layers of yourself and fully embody who you are. She holds such a safe, loving space for transformation." - Taylor
 
Work with Shay Rays: 
Shay Rays website: https://raysofshay.com
Shay Rays substack: https://substack.com/@shayrays 
Shay Rays youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@shay_rays
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website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
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Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

16. The power of intuition: LIVE astrology read with Kaisha Slaughter of MILF ERA

When source aligns with stars… 
In this episode, I sit down with Kaisha Slaughter - intuitive mother, mentor and founder of MILF ERA. Kaisha bridges self-image, neuroscience and source truth to empower women to live and lead from their life and family’s from intuition. She’s built her entire business by trusting her inner guidance, so I thought - how powerful would it be to explore her astrology chart and see how it aligns with that intuitive way of being? Let’s just say, the results were spot on.
we look at how her chart reveals natural gifts in communication, creativity, and leadership and how these align with the evolution of MILF ERA.
Astrology charts can be used as a powerful tool - an energetic blueprint of the soul’s purpose. They reveal our innate strengths, gifts and patterns, while also illuminating the shadow aspects that shape our growth. When we understand these cosmic imprints, we gain clarity on how our energy is designed to move through the world.
 
To book a reading with me to explore how your own chart can become a guide for alignment, purpose and intuitive leadership.
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To book a mentorship or session with Kaisha:
https://www.kaishaslaughter.com/
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Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

15. Fragments of remembrance - an essay on return

In this episode, Taylor shares Fragments of Remembrance - An Essay on Return, a spoken reflection on what it truly means to come home to yourself.
When Memory Becomes Meaning - she explores how healing isn’t about becoming someone new, but recognizing what’s always been here. The quiet unfolding that happens when the noise fades and truth becomes audible again.
In her post-essay reflection, Taylor speaks on the return to childlike wonder and the courage to follow your true heart’s desire. Reminding us that remembering ourselves can feel like rediscovering the curiosity in life.
A meditative podcast on Saturn return, remembrance and the soft art of returning to who you’ve always been.
Full substack article - https://substack.com/home/post/p-176757911
 
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14. The fear of rejection... Abandonment anyone?

The Rejection Illusion - Healing the Fear of Not Being Chosen
DAD?
In this episode, we explore one of the deepest human fears - rejection. From unanswered texts to childhood wounds, we examine why being “left out” can feel like danger to the nervous system and how that fear quietly shapes the way we love, create and show up in the world.
We discuss the biological, psychological and spiritual roots of rejection, the energetic cost of seeking acceptance and how self-rejection often hides beneath perfectionism, people-pleasing or overthinking.
To sum it up - If you're rejecting yourself... People will reject you. 
You’ll learn how to:
Recognize the subtle ways rejection shows up in your life
Rebuild self-trust through awareness and repair
Reclaim your power by choosing self-acceptance over approval
Practice radical self-love as a daily energetic alignment
This conversation is an invitation to stop abandoning yourself in search of validation and to remember that love isn’t something to earn, but something to return to.
We would never abandon you... WE ADORE YOU! Thanks for being here. 
 
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13. The witch wound (and your intuition)

for the lineage breakers, the womb-bearers and the ones remembering their power.
In this special episode, we explore the witch wound - the ancestral fear that has been passed down for centuries. We talk about intuition, ego vs. higher self, triggers and even the fluoride anti-christ (yes, really).
We trace how the persecution of wise, intuitive women lives on in our DNA through self-doubt, people-pleasing and the fear of being seen. And how choosing to heal, listen inwardly and following your intuition isn’t just personal work - it’s lineage work. Because we love our ancestors. 
We spill the cauldron on:- The link between the number 13, lunar cycles and the feminine- Why “witch” is a sacred word - not an aesthetic- How ancestral trauma gets stored in the body and passed through generations- Modern witch hunters (and how they show up today)- Practical ways to rebuild trust with your intuition
This episode is a remembrance: that your inner wisdom is not dangerous - it’s an inner compass. Every time you choose to trust yourself, you heal the fear that once silenced generations before you.
We adore you, and your lineage too.
 
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Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

12. What i'm calling in (the season of embodiment)

In this episode, Taylor shares what she's calling in for this next chapter - and what it truly means to embody it. From bringing more structure into creative flow, to deepening relationships (yes, even calling in love), to nourishing vitality and leading with an open heart… this conversation feels like a collective diary entry for her becoming.
We talk about:- Following through on our word and building trust with ourselves- The reflection behind indecision and how it fragments our energy- Nourishment as safety: teaching our bodies it’s safe to let go- Living with an open heart instead of making ourselves small- Turning intentions into embodiment, because that’s where the magic happens
As we enter October and the season of harvest, we’re asking together: What are you calling in? And more importantly… how are you embodying it?
Because of course, we ADORE you.
 
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