The Spiritually F*cked Podcast!

Well people, we are falling madly in love with life again.
What even is a fulfilling life anymore? Like truly?
In this epi we share Taylor’s recent journey (pits of hell and all) of returning to a fulfilling life. One that feels nourishing, meaningful, and true to who you are. On your own terms!!
We explore the difference between chasing someone else's version of success/ fulfillment and returning to the practices, rhythms, and values that genuinely support your well-being.
We talk about the importance of coming back to what works for you, honoring the seasons of your life, and building daily rituals that create a deeper sense of joy, purpose, and connection. Micro moments people!
Fulfillment is cultivated through the choices we make, the relationships we nurture, and the ways we learn to trust ourselves again and again.
This convo is an invitation to redefine what a beautiful life looks like on your own terms and to remember that the path back to yourself has always been available.
“Building a life that nourishes our soul may be one of the most powerful ways to honor and heal our lineage.” - Taylor & her ancestors xoxo
THANKS FOR BEING HERE!!! You fulfill us <3 
xx,
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Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3

On trauma, neuroprogramming & harmonizing the matrix.
"Yes... I'm a philosopher now." - Taylor
In this epi, we explore what we coined The Universal Law of Threads - a philosophical framework that views trauma as energetic, emotional, and neurological threads woven throughout the tapestry of our lives.
Drawing from the Reticular Activating System (RAS), neuroprogramming, nervous system patterns, and spiritual philosophy, we unpack how the mind continues to seek what is familiar and how our perception shapes the reality we experience. The stories we inherit and the meanings we assign become threads that influence what we notice, what we repeat, and what we create.
Inspired by the principle that energy is neither created nor destroyed, this convo invites us to see healing as transmutation. 
Rather than escaping the matrix… We are harmonizing it ("I’m also coining that shit" - Taylor) 
If you've ever felt like a particular wound, relationship, or memory keeps resurfacing, perhaps there is a thread inviting you into deeper remembrance, integration, and transformation.
Welcome to a philosophical musing from Taylor's corner of the universe.
We are copywriting this shit so don’t even try to steal it!
WE ADORE YOU!!
xx,
 
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podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477
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Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3

WE'RE NOT HERE TO CALL ANYONE OUT !
We're here to call ourselves back in.
An honest conversation about what happens when we unknowingly hand our power away... and how to find our way back to ourselves.
This is an exploration of the spaces between guidance and dependency, wisdom and authority, community and conformity. And what it means to find your own way home in a world full of people telling you where to go.
In this triggering epi, we explore the cultish dynamics that can emerge anywhere - spiritual communities, religious spaces, online movements, self-help circles, government ideologies, wellness culture, and even our own minds.
This is not a callout of any specific person, teacher, organization, or belief system.
Rather, it's an eagle-eye view of what can happen when we stop thinking for ourselves and begin outsourcing our truth to someone else.
We talk about radical responsibility, personal sovereignty, discernment, and what it means to find your own way through an increasingly noisy world.
We also introduce the concept of Radical Happiness - the practice of creating a life that genuinely feels aligned, meaningful, and true to you, rather than following a prescribed path handed to you by someone else.
Yep... we coined that.™️
As the saying goes, "We are all just walking each other home."
But home is your home.
Not your teacher's.Not your guru's.Not your parents'.Not society's.Not the internet's.
You cannot die in someone else's grave.
You are here to live your own life.
This conversation is offered from a place of love, curiosity, and awareness NOT judgment. Because being human is complicated, influence is everywhere, and learning to trust ourselves may be one of the most important journeys we'll ever take.
If this episode challenges you, good.
Let's talk about it.
WE ADORE YOU HEHE.
xx,
 
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podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3

Welcome to Cancer Season babieessss 
In this epi we’re diving into the cosmic waters of the Sun, Mercury, and Jupiter all moving through Cancer - a season of feeling, remembering, creating, and coming home to ourselves while asking the question: “Do the stories I’m telling myself still feel like home?”
The Sun illuminates. Mercury communicates. Jupiter expands.
We explore intuition, the mother wound, and the sacred process of birthing creation from the depths of your inner world into the physical one. What stories are ready to be recreated? What old waters are ready to wash away and cleanse?
Yummy.
We talk about the energetic themes of this season, our inner and outer homes, the spaces we create, and the ways artistic expression becomes a portal for transformation.
I share intuitive channel reads, energetic insights, and reflections on what to look for as we move through this Cancer season.
A little astrology, a little soul excavation, a whole lot of spiritually f*cked magic.
Because we adddooorreeee yoooouuuu!!!!! 
xx,
 
Mentorship with Taylor: https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3
Intuitive astrology reading with Taylor: https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr
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website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3

We're back. 🤍
After months away from the podcast, this epi is a life update - a reflection on moving into a new home, turning 30, publishing my book, traveling, and the loud ass transformations that happen when you begin creating a life that actually feels like yours. *chefs kiss*
We chit chat about following those intuitive pulls, trusting the timing of your life, and recognizing the signs that appear when you start living in alignment.
Diving into self-worth, reflection patterns, the law of mirrors, and how the outer world is always revealing the inner shifts we’re meant to move.
Taylor shares the deeper story behind weight gain as an energetic reflection, and her period returning after months of disappearing. Of course arriving right after publishing her second book and stepping into a new chapter of life.
We explore what it means to feel whole, to feel resourced, to love your life as it is, and how true manifestation is about becoming someone who can receive the life they’ve been asking for.
With the beginning of Cancer season, this episode is an invitation to come home to yourself, trust your own timing, and remember that the most magical moments often happen when you’re fully present for the life you’re already living.
A reminder: you don’t have to chase the life you want. It unfolds when you finally let yourself love the one you’re in.
WE ADORE YOU ! 
xx,
Mentorship with Taylor: https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3
Intuitive astrology reading with Taylor: https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr
 
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youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast
tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie
website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me -
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Taylor shares what happened after taking 2 months to completely disconnect from the world, after her trip to india fell through. 
No social media, no friends, no work… Just herself and her tonights (YIKES).
What she found was a radical return to herself. And she’s here to share it all:
How connections can act as distractions
What happens when you put your life/trust in others hands
The true gift of silence
Abandonment anyone?
Returning to yourself… Because why else are we here?
This episode explores what happens not only when you choose silence, but when you choose yourself. When you stop reaching outward and begin listening inward.
YAY.
WE ADORE YOU!!! 
 
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podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me -
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In this epi, Taylor reflects on the closing of a chapter that held so much of her becoming.
It’s been 4 years in the home that marked the beginning of her life in Boulder… to now preparing to leave it. (The house, not boulder - lol) What once felt like a beginning is now asking to be honored as an ending.
We talk about the bittersweet nature of change and the beauty of this cyclical life. How some things are meant to be lived fully, and then released. Enjoyed in every moment.
Let this message be an invitation to be present with your life as it is now. To recognize that even the moments you wish you could hold onto forever are temporary… and that’s what makes them sacred.
Because this life, this version of you, this chapter is just a blip in eternity.
And maybe that’s exactly why it matters so much.
Thanks for being here <3
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podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me -
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Another heart led yap with Taylor’s Boulder bestie Lilly from Home to Self Podcast!!
This epi feels like sitting on the floor with your best friend, realizing… you’re not crazy, you’re just human.
Lilly is a subconscious healing coach and founder of Home to Self. Taylor sits down and interviews her to talk about what it actually means to come back to yourself.
We go deep into the patterns that quietly run our lives: people pleasing, fear of abandonment, overthinking, needing to prove our worth, and how so much of it isn’t “who we are,” but what we learned to believe.
Lilly shares her journey from obsessive health + control into subconscious healing, and how the real shift didn’t come from doing more but from looking within.
We yap:
Why your brain is wired to keep you safe (not fulfilled)
How subconscious beliefs shape your relationships, identity and reality
The hidden root of people pleasing (and why it’s not your fault)
What it actually means to “rewire” a pattern
The difference between intuition vs. fear
Why overthinking is really under-feeling
How to work with your mind instead of against it
The balance between doing the work… and actually living your life
Host reminder: Healing isn’t about fixing yourself, it’s about remembering who you were before you learned you weren’t enough.
“You are both a masterpiece and a work in progress… at the same time.” - Lilly 
Lilly links:
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lillymterry/
Home program: https://home-program.info/
Home to Self Podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/077MdAVa2izkqWuMQUJBsR
 
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website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me -
https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3
 

Welcome to the new series! Star weather report - Where we break down what’s happening in the sky and what that means in your life! YAY! 
Aries season brings a powerful PUNCH into our passions. We chit chat all about the new identity our hearts are calling us to step into and what this energy means in your life.
Kicking off April is the full moon in libra, with the invitation to return to the relationship with your inner child.
Chiron in aries anyone? The wounded healer comes through with a message from your past.
We go into the delicious aspects of sensual venus in taurus and what this means in your love and relationships. 
We tap on mercury, mars and the way these two planets influence how you communicate and move through the world.
What better season to build trust in your self than aries season? 
This epi explores the energetic blueprint of April and how to move with the planets… not against it.
A message from your favorite astrologer: Take what you like and leave the rest. April brings some powerful shifts, how are you implementing?
WE ADORE YOU! AND ALL YOUR ASPECTS!!!
Thanks for being here.
 
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website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me -
https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3
 
 

In this epi, Taylor sits down with her Boulder bestie Lilly from Home to Self Podcast to explore how astrology can help us understand our patterns, reconnect with our intuition, and step into a new identity rooted in self-trust.
We move into deeper conversations around self-abandonment, subconscious conditioning, reparenting the inner child and what it actually looks like to trust yourself in everyday decisions. This episode is a reminder that real change happens when we stop outsourcing answers and start coming home to ourselves.
Topics covered:
What the current astrology is activating collectively
Why intuition is the most important tool right now
The difference between intellectual insight vs embodied change
Learning to stop outsourcing answers to other people
Releasing self-abandonment and people-pleasing patterns
Discovering what you actually want vs what conditioning told you to want
Fear of embarrassment, rejection, and being seen
Reparenting yourself with compassion
Sovereignty and the power of choice
This episode goes pretty deep… but also comes with mad sense of humor and poetic lightness that will reconnect you back into your heart.
WE ADORE YOU!! Thanks for being here fam.
Ways to work with Lilly: 
Here HOME program: https://home-program.info 
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lillymterry/%E2%81%A0 
 
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https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/
youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast
tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie
website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me -
https://www.sadflowerswritten.com/workwithme/p/basic-service-99c7l-3lnmr-tt4w3