The Spiritually F*cked Podcast

18. Soul reclamation - My breakthrough session with Shay Rays

In this intimate 1:1 session, Taylor sits down with her dear friend and space holder, Shay Rays. What begins as a heartfelt conversation unfolds into a profound exploration of the subconscious—revealing hidden layers, emotional truths and a powerful breakthrough moment. 
Together, they explore embodiment, awareness and the courage it takes to meet yourself fully.
If you’re on a journey of self-discovery or ready to uncover deeper parts of who you are, this episode invites you into the transformative power of being truly seen, heard, and held.
"I would highly recommend booking a 1:1 session with Shay Rays if you’re ready to uncover deeper layers of yourself and fully embody who you are. She holds such a safe, loving space for transformation." - Taylor
 
Work with Shay Rays: 
Shay Rays website: https://raysofshay.com
Shay Rays substack: https://substack.com/@shayrays 
Shay Rays youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@shay_rays
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website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

16. The power of intuition: LIVE astrology read with Kaisha Slaughter of MILF ERA

When source aligns with stars… 
In this episode, I sit down with Kaisha Slaughter - intuitive mother, mentor and founder of MILF ERA. Kaisha bridges self-image, neuroscience and source truth to empower women to live and lead from their life and family’s from intuition. She’s built her entire business by trusting her inner guidance, so I thought - how powerful would it be to explore her astrology chart and see how it aligns with that intuitive way of being? Let’s just say, the results were spot on.
we look at how her chart reveals natural gifts in communication, creativity, and leadership and how these align with the evolution of MILF ERA.
Astrology charts can be used as a powerful tool - an energetic blueprint of the soul’s purpose. They reveal our innate strengths, gifts and patterns, while also illuminating the shadow aspects that shape our growth. When we understand these cosmic imprints, we gain clarity on how our energy is designed to move through the world.
 
To book a reading with me to explore how your own chart can become a guide for alignment, purpose and intuitive leadership.
https://sadflowerswritten.com/
https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/
 
To book a mentorship or session with Kaisha:
https://www.kaishaslaughter.com/
https://www.instagram.com/kaishaslaughter/
 
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youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast
tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie
website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

15. Fragments of remembrance - an essay on return

In this episode, Taylor shares Fragments of Remembrance - An Essay on Return, a spoken reflection on what it truly means to come home to yourself.
When Memory Becomes Meaning - she explores how healing isn’t about becoming someone new, but recognizing what’s always been here. The quiet unfolding that happens when the noise fades and truth becomes audible again.
In her post-essay reflection, Taylor speaks on the return to childlike wonder and the courage to follow your true heart’s desire. Reminding us that remembering ourselves can feel like rediscovering the curiosity in life.
A meditative podcast on Saturn return, remembrance and the soft art of returning to who you’ve always been.
Full substack article - https://substack.com/home/post/p-176757911
 
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youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast
tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie
website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

14. The fear of rejection... Abandonment anyone?

The Rejection Illusion - Healing the Fear of Not Being Chosen
DAD?
In this episode, we explore one of the deepest human fears - rejection. From unanswered texts to childhood wounds, we examine why being “left out” can feel like danger to the nervous system and how that fear quietly shapes the way we love, create and show up in the world.
We discuss the biological, psychological and spiritual roots of rejection, the energetic cost of seeking acceptance and how self-rejection often hides beneath perfectionism, people-pleasing or overthinking.
To sum it up - If you're rejecting yourself... People will reject you. 
You’ll learn how to:
Recognize the subtle ways rejection shows up in your life
Rebuild self-trust through awareness and repair
Reclaim your power by choosing self-acceptance over approval
Practice radical self-love as a daily energetic alignment
This conversation is an invitation to stop abandoning yourself in search of validation and to remember that love isn’t something to earn, but something to return to.
We would never abandon you... WE ADORE YOU! Thanks for being here. 
 
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youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast
tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie
website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

13. The witch wound (and your intuition)

for the lineage breakers, the womb-bearers and the ones remembering their power.
In this special episode, we explore the witch wound - the ancestral fear that has been passed down for centuries. We talk about intuition, ego vs. higher self, triggers and even the fluoride anti-christ (yes, really).
We trace how the persecution of wise, intuitive women lives on in our DNA through self-doubt, people-pleasing and the fear of being seen. And how choosing to heal, listen inwardly and following your intuition isn’t just personal work - it’s lineage work. Because we love our ancestors. 
We spill the cauldron on:- The link between the number 13, lunar cycles and the feminine- Why “witch” is a sacred word - not an aesthetic- How ancestral trauma gets stored in the body and passed through generations- Modern witch hunters (and how they show up today)- Practical ways to rebuild trust with your intuition
This episode is a remembrance: that your inner wisdom is not dangerous - it’s an inner compass. Every time you choose to trust yourself, you heal the fear that once silenced generations before you.
We adore you, and your lineage too.
 
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Connects!
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youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast
tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie
website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

12. What i'm calling in (the season of embodiment)

In this episode, Taylor shares what she's calling in for this next chapter - and what it truly means to embody it. From bringing more structure into creative flow, to deepening relationships (yes, even calling in love), to nourishing vitality and leading with an open heart… this conversation feels like a collective diary entry for her becoming.
We talk about:- Following through on our word and building trust with ourselves- The reflection behind indecision and how it fragments our energy- Nourishment as safety: teaching our bodies it’s safe to let go- Living with an open heart instead of making ourselves small- Turning intentions into embodiment, because that’s where the magic happens
As we enter October and the season of harvest, we’re asking together: What are you calling in? And more importantly… how are you embodying it?
Because of course, we ADORE you.
 
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Connects!
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youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast
tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie
website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

11. The work has been working...

Finally! Some shifts!
This week we’re sharing a story that reminded us of something powerful: the work has been working.
After months of challenges, identity crises, self-worth struggles and wondering if anything was ever going to shift - Taylor was gifted the most magical, soul-affirming weekend at a women’s retreat in Sedona. In this episode, we walk you through how saying “yes” to that experience cracked Taylor open, reflected back her true essence and showed us that healing doesn’t happen overnight… but it does happen.
From night terrors that became teachers, to surrendering control, to the unexpected doors that opened once Taylor trusted herself – this episode is about remembering that life rewards us when we live in alignment with who we really are.
If you’ve ever wondered: “How do I know if the work I’m doing is actually working?” – this one’s for you.
Because well, we adore you.
 
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Connects!
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youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast
tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie
website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten 
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

10. Why your frequency is so important right now...

Well it's always been... But right now your frequency matters more than ever.
We are diving DEEP into one of our favorite topics over here: your frequency. What it is, why it matters and how to keep it sparkly clean in today’s overstimulating, fear mongering world.
If you're an artist, creator, "sensitive sally" or literally anyone who consumes the outside world - this episode is a MUST.
What “frequency” actually means and how it shapes your emotions, creativity and well-being
What happens when you don't make this your top priority *yikes*
Stories from my own 11-year journey with energy therapy, spiritual strengthening and the so called “spiritual gym” training
An invitation to deepen your daily energy-hygiene practices to keep your system clear
Your frequency is sacred, treat it like something worth protecting - because it is! 
If you’re ready to strengthen your humanness, clear the static and align with higher vibes, this one’s for you and all your friends.
Join my live Energy Hygiene 101 class on Zoom (or grab the replay) - just $25. 
Purchase class here: https://sadflowerswritten.com/products/energetic-hygiene-101
Reel mentioned: https://www.instagram.com/reel/DOrkM2JiX4B/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link&igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==
 
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website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships
 

9. When you need to let go…

A Podcast: When You Need to Let Go…
For the moments when your grip is too tight, your heart feels heavy, or the past won’t quit. Sometimes the only thing standing between you and freedom is a single, quiet move.
For when holding on feels heavier than the unknown waiting ahead, this is permission to breathe, to shift and to let by.
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website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

8. SF story time!! The week of reflections...

Welcome to Spiritually F*cked Story time! Where we talk about truth, laugh at ourselves and learn from all the things.
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This week I’m catching you up on life, but more than that - I share the reflections that came with broken closets, Instagram cloning, and even a duplicated podcast!! Like WTF ? 
All those “glitches” held an intimate lesson: energy is everything and when you shift it on an energetic level, your environment shifts too.
We’ll explore:
Life updates because you love me
What breakdowns are really here to show us
How to create shifts with your sh*t (literally)
Why energy runs the whole damn show
This episode is part story time, part reflection, and part reminder that even your sh*t can become sacred.
Energy is the cheat code,
Welcome to the mess! 
~ Spiritually F*cked.
 
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tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie
website: https://sadflowerswritten.com
Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships